Archive | September 2013

I Don’t Understand…..

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With school starting up all over our little community,  that statement ” I don’t understand” …. or better known as “why”….may be heard more and more.

“I don’t understand”…. why I have to go to bed so early….
“I don’t understand”…. why I can’t wear that to school……
“I don’t understand”…. why I have to ride the bus….
“I don’t understand”…..why I have so much homework…
“I don’t understand”…..

Your household … I’m sure… depending on the age of your kids will vary in your “I don’t understand”  conversations.

Of course…. as a parent… we can give them the answer to their “I don’t understand” questions, but more than likely….. it wont satisfy their quest to understand.   Whether it be because they are not getting the answer THEY were wanting… hoping their answer, would become your answer….Or…. It just could be that it is just not something  they truly can see… to make sense of.  Their view of things are very limited because of their knowledge of the circumstances and they can not see any farther than the here and now…… or….those views have just been very muddled with what they have seen with others… you know…… life!

Throughout My life… I can recall many…. “I don’t understand”  times ……

“I don’t understand”…….Why Asthma was a part of my life and it always showed up at the worst times to keep me out of the fun.
“I don’t understand”…… Why those kids seemed to hate me on the bus and called me names.
“I don’t understand”…… Why I wasnt chosen to be Cheerleader…. Drum Majorette…. or first in a game of dodge ball.
“I don’t understand” ….. Why a former boyfriend thought he could hit me.
“I don’t understand” ….. Why My Husband didn’t think I was good enough to not cheat on me.
“I don’t understand” ….. Why I just seemed to always get looked over for “the good stuff”…

Over the years, however,  those “I don’t understand” musings have somehow been leveled out….. and although at the time they had a sting as big as a hornet…. that sting….has faded in my memory.
Oh,  there are still battle wounds from some… tiny scars from others that you really need a magnifying glass to see ….. but when I ponder on that list…. and the much longer
list in my mind that I spared you from….. they seem very…. unimportant!

I will have to concede to the fact that many… if not all… have shaped me… made me… strengthened me…. hardened me…. softened me….humbled me.
But in the totality of it all…. I turned out OK!

BUT…

It is the here and now “I don’t understand’s” that I am having the most trouble with!!

“I don’t understand”…… Why a good show on tv or a movie has to have cuss words in it!
“I don’t understand”…… Why a shampoo commercial has to sound like an R-Rated movie
“I don’t understand”…… Why we we cannot mention the Name Jesus in Public but a host of belief’s in other religions are being brought in to the schools as history or culture classes
“I don’t understand”…… Why taking a life in abortion is considered choice and a mothers right to decide what she wants to do with her body
“I don’t understand”…… Why someone would kill their spouse instead of filing for a divorce
“I don’t understand”…… Why a parent could kill their child …. for any reason.
“I don’t understand”…… Why there are soooo many missing people anymore.
“I don’t understand”…… Why a person who is obviously guilty can walk away free of all charges just because their lawyer was a better liar than the prosecutor.

THESE…. are just a few of the important “I don’t understand” questions that make me want to cry….and honestly… i probably dont ever want to truly understand some of these things… because the reality is more than likely even worse than me just trying to Understand!

When I pose the questions to God….He gives me the answers to my “I don’t understand” questions, but…. just like our little ones….. it wont satisfy my quest to fully understand.   Whether it be because I am not getting the answer I am really wanting…Or…. It  just may not be something  I truly can see…I cant seem to make sense of any of it in my mind…because I am only able to see just a small portion of the big picture.

But…

“I do understand”…… There is Sin in the world
“I do understand”…… God gives us Free will and some of us misuse it.
“I do understand”…… Many are deceived by the master of deception
“I do understand”…… That it only looks like the guilty are getting away with it.
“I do understand”…… It more than likely will get worse
“I do understand”…… That Jesus is our ONLY Hope
“I do understand”…… He is coming back VERY soon!

Although knowing the answers are not always enough…..

Knowing the ONE Who Gives those answers….. IS!!

…… and that…… “I do understand”.

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